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[Feb. 2nd, 2010|11:04 am] |
Best day of 2010 as of yet!
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-Mailed applications for school.
-Rearranged room
-RuPaul's drag race, LIVE!
-Found my black hat
-Took some new photos
-Found out my webcam isnt naturally blurry... theres a focus on the camera you have to physically turn!
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I've come to the conclusion that every time I change my room i've either: done a mini restart in my life, dumped a guy, or been insanely bored. I think the most recent one i've done was the first two. It empowers me!
I recently re-found my black hat. It's absence made my life a little sad. And my bad hair days... a bit more obvious.
Soo... my webcam has physical focus part to it. Which I don't get... I mean, when will you EVER want to make yourself blurry or non blurry? I was cleaning it then realized part of it spun... and then put two and two together and realized that it has a focus element, like manual cameras. I don't understand technology and its bleeps.
RuPaul's drag race is back and i am LOVENNNNN IT! They removed the weird Vaseline camera feel, everyone is crisp and clear... and thin!! I want more unique girls next season, but some of these queens are hilarioussssss!
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[Jan. 13th, 2010|12:07 pm] |
Bro'k Wilkes: Alain!! You just stole my rich man in the Sims! I ask him to leave his wife, and the next night your his partner! Gold diggen' bon qui qui bullshit!!
Ps: Miss you.
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It kind of hit me the other day... I don't really have a linking life with the gays. Nigel teaches yoga and stuff and he has a lot of gay members in his class. Alain works with men's clothing... he deals with them on a costumer base. Before I had my hospital job...basically an eagle eye into the lives of gay men plagued with HIV... so the link I had with them was a very dark one. The point i'm trying to get at is that the only link I have with many of the gay guys I know... is Edge.
This reminds me of this guy I know: Spongebob. No, not the real one... just a guy who has the personality of one. He pointed out Alain and I were always so crazy at the bar and that we're predictable. I found it hilariously odd that this little guy was telling me this. I mean, what did you want out of me... ? To change my mood every time I'm at the bar. To try to go to Edge sober and coherent. To sit down and chat idly by the drunks about recent books I've read.
It just made me link that the assumptions that people do at a bar... or in the gay community in general.
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This makes me happy : Meredith Vieira
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Back to the assumptions of the gay community... I recently started going for this guy. We've been doing baby steps cause I got my teeth removed and christmas time isn't really ideal time for any couple. Anyway, during that period I kept on going on online sites. A friend of his, who I already thought had been crushing on him, then proceeds to tell him I'm always online... I guess the basic assumption is that I was getting all sorts of ass...? Living with my parents, working 30+ hours a week, and rarely leaving my house. I just found it funny that things get around simply with me logging in and leaving a window open.
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Has winter been that bad? I really don't feel like this one has been. It's kind of nice! Obviously now it will change into hurricane storms and a pestilence of snow... but for now. I enjoy.
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I'm going to re-start my mini reviews of games. I found it lots of fun to do before and it kind of dropped cause my interest in gaming did as well. But now with the PS3, I can actively do it again!!
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I'm done reading almost every Xmen comic. It's still a bit confusing...but I guess like any thing that's written every two weeks and involves super heroes... it's meant to be. The shifting story lines and the ever changing art made me realize that comics are really something that need a solid foundation. Or at least a bit of a continuity feel. It's like if you watch a tv show, showcase tv shows don't always have the same directors but they understand the feel. It's like some writers and artists just don't get it. It just feels weird when characters change look every 3rd comic.
Ex: Rogue
  
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Oh, a special thanks to Matt for mentioning Pomplamoose in previous posts. <3 |
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| 2010 post. |
[Jan. 8th, 2010|11:04 am] |
What did the cannibal say to the baby?
Hi.
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Dexter Season 4 is the last season I am going to watch. [SPOILER ALERT] I loved the season till the last few episodes. They just felt pushed together, forced, and I felt uncomfortable. Mostly with the children... The uneasy relationship I had with this show anyway came to a stop when the main character felt he had things in common with the villain this season. I find John Lithgow did an amazing job and I really praise his work and see him in a different light now. The last part of the show really hit me and I don't know why... Oh well.
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I got my wisdom yanked out. And if anyone asks if I can take a photo of myself, my face was SO swollen that day, it was hilarious. I'm glad the picture can lie to you cause I won't.
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Embarrassing moment: I sent a picture of myself, very risqué, to the wrong number while sexting one night. I never got a text back.... so I'm still hoping it ends up being a land line number.
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Ripping off the bandaid was my new years resolution and boy did it come quick. My computer died the 01/01/10. One of the many, but this time I bought a new computer. Brand new, Best Buy, Windows 7, ect.... Awesome. It's so great getting a computer and opening a box. Not getting "Ok, so if anything goes wrong, just message me or call me". My last three computers were made by all these people and I just don't wanna get into the drama. I like having a computer of my own. :) Refreshing. RIP! (So much money spent...)
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My new years was so peaceful. I'm glad that the amp of it all didn't get to me this year and Alain went along with my plans of just staying in. It's refreshing knowing that you don't always have to over do it.
Cute butt. Favourite Pic.
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Avatar... It's like THE talked about movie. Really, the story is debatable and the characters questionable. But overall the graphics are SO beautiful, you have to go to 3D Imax alone for that. It will NOT be the same on your tv.
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After paying off everything else in my life, I'm going to get driving lessons this year. I need to have a car to go places. If I'm stuck in this odd cycle of my life, being with my parents and ect... Let's do it this time the smart way. Get a car in the equation! I really can't wait. :)
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[Jan. 8th, 2010|10:10 am] |
1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Was unemployed. It's a first since the age of 15!
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I made one last year. I made two this year, to kiss more (experience good love more.) and rip off the bandaid (let reality hit you a bit more).
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
A lot of people I know gave birth, mostly people my age. Eery.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
I had to think about it... so no.
5. What countries did you visit?
India, and all the stops within the layovers. (United states and Germany)
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Stability. And I find it weird that I am asking for that.
7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The month of March. I lost my job at the hospital and my grandmothers home burnt down. It was really hard on me but it made me realize that... like life, everything can come to a shocking end. Jobs, security....
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I can't say that I have one global achievement.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Moving back into my parents house. I think that just shows me that i'm in a bit of a cycle. And I have to make a new one!
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I dont believe anything too serious. Even though having a cold during swine season and flying between countries had me nervous.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Playstation 3. FINALLY.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My parents. As always.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
I think this is a loaded gun question... but my own at times. I'm heavily at fault for this years problems. Alex as well.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent, technically. And my drinking haha.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Playstation 3 and all of it's games! hahaha, so sad--
16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Kiss With A Fist - Florence and the Machine
Heads Will Roll - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
I'm Not A Robot - Marina and the Diamonds
Blue - Regina Spektor
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?: sadder.
ii. thinner or fatter?: thinner
iii. richer or poorer?: poorer!
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Taken initiative!
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Make excuses haha.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Oh, does this matter? I worked the day before and after. Got sick the day of and spent it on my aunts couch. It was tremendous fun. But I received lots of PS3 games. So that's always nice.
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
No, not even close.
23. How many one-night stands?
I don't think i've ever had one of these technically. I tend to fuck people I know haha. But I got laid 3 times this year.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Samantha Who, True Blood, Battlestar Galactica ended this year, Big Love, Sherri, Big Bang Theory, The Guild...! I watch a lot of mindless stuff too haha.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I don't really hate, I just move on.
26. What was the best book you read?
I honestly don't think I read anything of heavy value.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Florence and the Machine
28. What did you want and get?
Playstation 3.
29. What did you want and not get?
A stable job, an education...!
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
I feel so unenthusiastic this year about movies and books and...! Avatar for it's over the top graphics, Up for making me cry so much, and The September Issue for it's dryness.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
21. It was really nice, Montreal, friends, strip joints, clubbing. I really enjoyed myself as well. Some people really stepped up to the plate that night, namely Matt! That weekend is what I want my life to be. Weekends away, come back sunday..!
32.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Finding out that the job I did for 3 years of my developing life didn't cripple me like I thought it did. I can do retail and now I know I can do more then retail...!
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Wow, everywhere. Like every year. but I think this year it really got refined thanks to Banana Republic. I don't think this year I tried at all. Which was nice.
34. What kept you sane?
Friends for sure.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Obama I guess. I don't really do that stuff...
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Oh please...
37. Who did you miss?
I miss some people in the state that they were. Innocence is no more. But what can I do!
38. Who was the best new person you met?
The BR staff. Really feel like they were meant to be part of my life, some of them...!
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
I'm good for nothing and I rely too much on people. Life edit needed. |
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| 22-11-09 |
[Nov. 22nd, 2009|10:11 pm] |
"...if I had four arms, I'd give you four thumbs up" - Alain, Montreal Hotel, half passed out on the bed.
Recovering has never been my thing and when it happens, I'm black and white about it. But while I watched my friend slowly bite down into a watermelon I questioned how it seems to always be his thing. Hangovers are a form of recovering... a basic 24 hour rise and fall that could probably be easily symbolic of ones life at times. See the pattern, drink, over step your bounds, ruin what you had, and then recover. The fact I didn't have to make the hard realization yet again in my life kind of makes me laugh.
"Is that...precum?!"
I've been reading this graphic novel about a rock star and a simple girl staying in an apartment and basically going through life together. Anyway, later on in the story...one is touring and the other has a life. They realize that they had a strange form of love. That they needed each other in life. I told Alain I needed him this weekend while we were swimming. That I was sorry that even though his mother had a heart attack and he had all these money problems with his car, that I still wanted him here and how selfish I was. He said he needed this just as much as I did. Then he got sick and wasn't with me all night.
"Where's my drink...!!"
I had a wonderful night. Which made me link... I don't need him always. I just always make him seem needed. I love him like a brother but we treat each other like a married couple. I need to go out more without him.
"RAH RAHH OOH LALAAAA...THIS SONG WONT STOP-AHH AHHH AHHHH!"
Seeing familiar faces on my birthday that I didn't have any hate for, made me have positive energy. I never had one bad thought all night... which is a first in a long long time. I liked how everything worked out, everything was strangely perfect. Well maybe not circumstance wise but people wise. I never had a problem!
"Did he just hit me on the head with his dick?"
Shopping, Santa Claus Parade + Crowds, strippers, heavy HEAVY drinking, swimming, laughing, lady gaga-ing, singing, gambling, greyhound-ing, bad cake, PICTURES, flash flash, new faces, old smiles.
"Un chien chaud." "'All dressed' ou nu?" "Nu. Toujour nu. C'est comment j'aime les choses." |
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| rant about retail |
[Oct. 14th, 2009|10:08 am] |
Ok, so this is my rant about retail. Since I really only briefly mentioned it previously...
PROS:
The pros of this job is compared to my last I talk to people and move around. Actually making for productive work. Also, instead of being my own boss, I have more structure and order in my life with this job being present. I missed an aware boss... I know what you people are thinking but really... when you go to work and three to four problems pop up and your boss says to deal with it. Then six months later you get blasted for not doing the right thing... you like hearing a firm voice at that moment. Other then that the job is pretty mindless, at times tediously stupid, but for the most part...I enjoy it.
CONS:
MONEYYYYYYYY. Oh my... I am just overly used to paychecks from the health care section that these compared... these are so small. It scares me! Oh well, something to get used to. If ever. I also work with hetero women... which makes me either cringe with hate or laugh way too much at their drama. |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2009|10:44 pm] |
My day started by wikipediaing (I believe should be a verb by now) Cheers and ended with a photo that broke me. From simple clicks I was moved from learning that Frasier is one of the best televised shows, via ratings, money and awards... to realizing I'll never be the sort of boy that guys fall for properly. Two major extremes facilitated by my friend the computer.
Anyway, I have a job. I've had it for some time now... but I forgot to post about it. It's in retail...yay. Pretty silly, but I sell 400$+ dresses and watch tv on my break. I get 50% at Gap Inc stores... go team. I get lots of hours and the people are crazy... so it seems fitting. |
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| Drafts from Last Night |
[Sep. 14th, 2009|02:23 pm] |
Drafts from last night:
"What happened to his eyebrows?" - Text to Matt when I saw a guy with practically no brows.
"Pretentious Asshole" - Edge
"Leave Spitters Alone" - Guy's shirt
"Fly is in my brain" - Hiking, when a bug got in my ear.
"Come at 2 sugarthus" - My phone broke and t9 failed.
"For a free home invasion call:" - A weird advertisement
"CamerXXX" - Alain's drag queen name
"This bathroom is the symbol of edge"
"Why do fat people always smell?"
"Look at his wrist...he carved those in"
"You just licked dog vagina" quoting Alex S. after Michael kissed the dog... after the dog...
"You did...you just didn't..you know?"
"We're possibly coming" Truthful text to unknown
"Can you pass me Matt or Roger's DS... we can picto chat"
"Everyone is black"
"I just found a new favourite channel... the history channel!!" - Alain |
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| Take A Walk Around The Table |
[Aug. 10th, 2009|11:52 am] |
Foreword: I've been meaning to post my trip to india stuff but each time I plan it... my computer kills itself. It's about 6 pages long of over the top stuff. But as it is, still fun/ny to read. I will get to it...eventually.
So I moved. again.
This time it takes me back a bit, I moved back home. I really dont know how I feel about it. My parents are everchanging and the house is always different. It was fine when I lived here because I could slowly see the small changes being made but now that I jumped 3 years, it's a bit difficult. The house feels new and different. My new bedroom has nothing from the old one... and I like the change.
I now have in my posesion:
1 turtle
1 pirate Themed Lamp (I named him Horatio)
1 very cold basement
1 lost self of awareness
1 hot tub
1 sewing machine computer desk
1 huge library
My parents have left and I have that time to reacquaint myself with these walls. They have gym/weight equipment that I have been using. I've set up the bike in a great way. So I do the bike for 30-40 minutes on a medium level and play slots when it gets boring.
In other news, everyone is giving me rides to places. I have montreal this weekend and then I've been to my cottage two weekends in a row. How great. I've really enjoyed my time there...! I actually did some logging, like I did in the winter, it's pretty cool. Clearing trees and brush and then taking the cut down logs somewhere else. Other then that I went to this camp ground that my sister was sent too (We're looking less and less like siblings.) It's built on was used to be some native tribe's land... it was pretty cool. Now that I read up on it, the camp is owned by the united church of Canada and the site has a zillion crosses all over it. Creepy... Oh, speaking of crosses. The wooden one my dad built has now been destroyed and replaced with a cement one. The fact we have a huge 'iron-aged celtic-christian' inspired cross in the middle of our field no longer bugs me... how messed up is that?
I feel like i've barely come back to Ottawa since my recent big travel and I really like the feeling... always on the go. Always having something to look foward too...always gone...
PS: Late night snacks are the best
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| A real update is coming up... |
[Jul. 11th, 2009|03:17 pm] |
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"Honey, let's not talk about our paths. When a problem happened in my path, I flew to mother fucken India. When I came back I had bought Indians to move the problem." |
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| India again |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|05:14 pm] |
I think recent posts basically gave a define view on India. For the most part I feel bombarded with a new way of living. Never in my life would I ever think to see this way of life. Passing rich complexes with people in tin houses in the lot, women holding their insect covered babies while begging for money at your car window, security guards with guns sleeping in front of mall entrances...
India is a mystery and will remain it. I don't think I've learned much about this cultured just swallowed it. An aftertaste that is not bad or good...just accepted. Because it's so foreign you can't really compare it to anything... I feel that India is that one food creation someone brought at the pot luck and I completely ignored it for so long. Now that i've had a taste I am dumbfound and confused where to place it with the other food. Not like it has a bad taste... just completely different. New, foreign, exotic, smelly...haha.
India is beautiful though... it's given me a taste for Asia I never thought I'd enjoy. I was always against visiting china, japan, india, ect... Over populated, over the top, over flowing cultures that I appreciated but never thought I'd want to visit... Now are warping into charming places I may want to visit in the future. There's now something so natural about 50 cars in a small stretch of road all fighting for first place, bikes flying by, people wearing scarves to cover their mouth from dirt and other peoples breath, the constant watchful eyes of the natives...
I guess in the end what I'm trying to express is that India, much like my other travels has opened my eyes where I wasn't expecting it too. Another place making my head tick faster then it has before. I think that's what real traveling is. India is a raw taste that you can't put your finger on and I can appreciate that.
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| Ignore First Day, I Start at Second |
[Jun. 19th, 2009|09:39 pm] |
Second day in india, I'm slowly feeling better... my nose is all red cause of my cold, so no pictures of me. We took a walk around the market and it was beautiful yet scary. Outside my bedroom is a wonderful view of the 'slums' of Gargaon. It's beautiful in the morning but I've noticed there's a family living beside the grounds in a broken buildings that time seems to have destroyed and forgotten. Because i'm on the 15th floor, I can watch the family at night by their campfire.
Cows walk idly by beside cars and people in the country... and today we saw that they even take up parking spaces like vehicles. Speaking of cars... a lot of cars; many people in them... This country is much like Montreal for driving yet they don't take the red lights seriously and most people swerve in and out of lanes like they aren't there. I'm now relieved to know we have an indian driver. We visited most of the malls today and the markets... and we seemed to get lost in the living areas of Gargaon. The malls are very much like the ones back home and the markets are to be expected. Tin shacks with a man behind the counter who looks between Molly and I's age. The best part of today is when I saw a small child go up to one of the tin booths and ask for a Mountain Dew. And he was given a mountain dew in a glass bottle and it was going for 20ruppes. Which is about 50 cents canadian. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 14th, 2009|02:35 pm] |
Admit it... you've seen someone on the street, sitting on the bus, in the bathroom... with a kid and atleast once you've thought to yourself : That person should not be a parent. I know I have more then once. Or a couple kissing in public that actually made you lift and eye or cringe. I think this pretty much is a human reaction and if you're not willing to admit that to yourself, you can stop reading now.
As a gay man, I myself have cringed at an odd couple making out or even at a parent who's child is having a temper tantrum, but isn't that an oxymoron. When I myself can't physically become a parent and public display of affection is frowned upon in popular culture. Recently acts against same sex marriage has come into the public eye and brought the topic under the microscope. Well move aside because this is my turn to say a few thoughts.
1. Marriage :
When the PROP8 business started the attack was primarly the sanctity of marriage vs change. I myself don't believe in marriage as a stable institution to fight for but strangely america does. It's sad that a country that knows more about celebrity relationships then their own government are rising together to bring homosexual kinship down when the celebrities they themselves praise end up in divorce. The states has that funny stigma of "50 percent of marriages will end in divorce", who knows if that number is real or not but with figure heads like Angelina Jolie (divorced twice) and Bill Clinton (never divorced but cheated more then the media even touches) america is the clearly the figure head of marriage. If the sanctity of marriage was critically important divorce wouldn't exist. Marriage like most things has turned into an idealistic final treatment to a relationship no matter how broken it may be.
2. Family
Marriage is the symbol for families and vice versa. I mean, during the time of eliminating same sex marriage the word family was thrown around more then an asian hooker. And like that asian hooker something in the mix wasn't right. I mean, if saving the views of marriage gives to a happy family...and you need marriage to have a family.... then that eliminates a lot of people. If you're pro family, this usually means you're for the idea that a man and a woman who can procreate are the only choice to get married. Which eliminates gay parents, infertile couples and parents who do not want children. Also religiously people believe that homosexuality is a sin also believe divorce is not an option. So taking that in consideration, most of america wouldn't be happy. So why define a cookie cutter family with marriage as its prime ingredient when most of the dough won't be used. I mean, most families are disfunctional, marriage or not. If it's your first or second or third mother the children won't be saved from a different lifestyle. With this ideal an 18 year old girl with no life experience can get married and have her kids fine. But two 30 year old gay women who have an adopted child with a handful of experience is worst for the family unit. How ridiculous does that sound.
3. Kids
This is where I myself come to a cross road. Unknown to me is the idea of children in my future. Also how same sex couplings and their effect on children. We know that a single mother raising a child causes the son to have a higher change of violence and criminal future. Yet we let single mothers continue to have their children. Also with the illegalasation of marriage for same sex marriages does not enable them to adopt. I know many people who's parents are common law married or they never got married (I lived in the country haha). Same sex marriage isn't stopping them to get children and raise them so I don't understand why people are taking a step against marriage when you don't need it for the family equation. I mean, we all know marriage doesn't make a family. Mommy doesn't always love daddy and that piece of paper won't stop her from leaving. Children will be affected, marriage or not. Children are affected by simpler things like tv and their favourite toy breaking. To use children in a politically charged debate against equal rights is no surprise but really shouldn't factor into this debate importantly.
4. Opinion
The instution of marriage is one of failure and holds morals and values long lost but still needed in culture today. Much like that friend who won't go away but you keep him around just cause he was there since the beginning... fighting for marriage to stay pure and dominant is majorly flawed by the fact he's slept around with all your friends. Er, I mean marriage is not something respected or cared for in todays world so why stand up for it now. Laws evolve with the times, as we've seen before with women, blacks and other sensitive sexist/racist movements. Gay marriage will be legal and fine in a few years, just hold on till the tornado passes... and just duck when a flying biggot cow flies by.
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| A Bull In A China Shop |
[Jun. 9th, 2009|10:56 am] |
I hope there's never a 'response' LJ to something I said ever again. How silly...
Anyway, things are well with me. I forget to update when my life gets mundane! I've been playing the Sims 3, it's lots of fun :) Can I say that the most annoying question that I get asked is "Do you make your sims straight?". Yes, out of all things I play a game that mimics my life and I date girls in it. Because somehow that makes my life feel better. No. No. No. No. It's not like I am against straight sims, I have them on my lot as well and play them. I just find that question so... odd?
Other then that my life is pretty solid. I recently went and got lots of travel stuff for a trip I'm going to take in the near future. I've been drawing a lot as well! I tried linking a deviant post I did, a quick sketch... but you have to do stand alone posts for that. So here we go!
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| And What I Wanted To Say Was... |
[Jun. 8th, 2009|08:19 pm] |
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Ps: The Orleans boys have had their place a lot shorter period of time then you and i've been there a lot...thanks to invites. It's the same distance to go there as it is your place. I shouldn't feel guilty for inviting myself. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2009|02:03 pm] |
I got a youtube account. Just because I wanted to post this vid. It's pretty bad but I also love it.
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[May. 18th, 2009|10:25 am] |
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After I made an incredibly lengthy post about models the last time my inner country boy shot himself and we used his corpse as a scarecrow in the field. I mean... this is an awkward/angry/angst post! THREE A's! THREE! Hah.HAh.Hah.
Saturday: I came to the conclusion that cave has nothing for me. I think I struggled with this for the last few years... Even if I hated it, I am there once a month. So I thought it was It's something forced upon every gay guy...and most just do snort some substance and ignore the fact. I once heard that some gay snorted an entire asian family after they mistook the bathhouse for a public bath...urban myth? Who knows.
The Five: Did I ever tell you the story of the final five of Ottawa? Geek reference, it will jump over all your heads. Anyway, to put it simple. Five guys in Ottawa that I just had an instant attraction too. I've gone on a date with three, talked to the fourth, and the fifth is oblivious to everything I do.
One I dated... one I tried... one simply just went on a dinner and he drank himself a bit into the wrong. One basically said he would have started something if I would have been more direct and then left Ottawa. Now he's back and it's just weird. Don't confess things before a move that ends up not being for the rest of your life. The other used to work at Rideau and I tried speaking to him but got his fag hag and it just went to shits. But all of them followed the same pattern, brock approaches very poorly, time goes by, they come to brock. It won't happen with the last one...but I'm fine with that.
The Roomate: She's obviously intertwined with my social life and i'm not sure if I'm too happy with that anymore. I'm fine with it in general but I tend to forget that she has a limited social circle and that if she wants to hang out with our communal friends without me, that's fine. The only problem with that is that she, for some odd reason, doesn't like to tell me... Ex: She went to go see Star Trek, cool. She told me she was going to go do things downtown, not cool. Matt talking about the movie when we were all together and her looking at me like her secret was out, retarded? I mean, out of all things you're allowed to hang out with your friends solo. Just don't keep it from me... it seems so needless. Oh, and she's worst then fuck to get to clean and do dishes, but she's awesome. It was the other way around with the old roommate, so I'm fine. Haha
And basically that's my life in clumps. I wanted it to be witty and fun but I think the fact I haven't posted in some time got to me and my loins of annoying were spilled. Yet again.
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